Unfinished 3rd Video
Despite my motivation being cut in half after having the 2nd video being removed while it was becoming very popular, I still had plenty of energy left so I started work on a 3rd video to continue the series.
I
released a small video teasing this 3rd part and it had a bit of world
building in order to start fleshing out the lore. With the experience that I gained
from the previous videos, this 3rd one was shaping up nicely; it fleshes
out the main character's motivations while introducing new ones and it's longer and with more scenes
and animations, also with better dialogue to boot.
In the beginning my work was proceeding smoothly, but then overtime I was spending less and less hours working on the project. Where before I worked 2-3 days per week, soon I was only working once per week, then only working once or twice a month... and eventually it "fizzled" just like that.
The reason? Just everyday life itself really. Just the necessity of focusing on my day job, family and social life took my attention away from the vore videos project.
And to be clear, it's not like something bad happened in my life or anything; just the usual stuff that we all go through: having to taking care of family matters, having a social life, having to grind everyday for your day job, paying the bills, etc.
To me at the time this wasn't even exactly a hobby per se, so the only time that I dedicated to it was on the spare-time of my spare-time, in a sense. So in my spare time I would do my normal hobbies, etc and if there was any spare time from then only then I would sit down and work on the videos.
So I guess that when I my 2nd video got killed, I lost the necessary motivation that would have made me keep pushing forward and finding time to work in it, despite the usual daily life demanding my full attention. So what happened is that as my motivation waned through the months, I slowly drifted away from this little project and eventually everyday life just took my full attention, eventually leading me to forget and essentially abandon the whole thing.
The crazy thing? The project file for this 3rd video sits comfortably on my HD to this day, being about 85% completed. Yep that's right, it's only missing a few final scenes that would wrap up the whole video, but otherwise I could release it right now because everything before those final scenes is completed and in its final state providing almost the full content.
On What Could Have Been
You see, back in 2013/2014 patreon wasn't a thing yet so the concept of being an artist and being supported and motivated by the people who directly enjoy your creations didn't really exist (or at least I wasn't aware of it) so the thought of taking the series seriously and dedicating serious time to it never even passed through my head.
Nowadays there's a huge scene (or industry if you will) of 3D animated adult content, with many great and amazing artists creating animations for a wide array of fetishes and preferences, and almost all of them being supported by their fans which grows the scene and helps them to keep making this content that otherwise would not exist.
So every once in a while when someone brings this up to me in private online, I like to wonder if in different circumstances I would have also become a 3D creator making custom content and therefore continuing the video series. Maybe even expanding and covering other topics, migrating to different and better tools, etc. Just an entertaining thought that I have once in a while.
Conclusion
And that's about it really. No big mystery or anything... it's just that all of the circumstances at that time eventually lead to me moving on to other things. The videos required from me a certain amount of time and commitment that I simply wasn't able to justify for something that was supposed to be just a one-off thing, and so I moved on.
Will I ever go back to work on these types of videos again? I... don't know, but probably not. While I'm the type of person that believes in "never say never", if you were hoping for more videos in the series then I apologize but there won't be any more, or at the very least, not any time soon.
To me, making the videos was more of a "means to an end". That is to say, making the videos was simply a medium through which I materialized an idea that I had at the time. It's not even that I dislike creating videos, because I did enjoy creating them for a time, but the thing is that I didn't exactly grew up thinking "oh, one day I want to be a video editor/creator" so I never gave this path a more serious consideration.
Whereas making games is the kind of thing that I always wanted to do since childhood but where always too scared to commit because I thought it would be a waste of time because I had to be "realistic" and just focus on my safe day-job for the rest of my life. It's to the point that I make time out of thin air and excuses in order to find time to work on working on games.
What I mean to say is that now that I have truly found my "calling" if you will, I simply don't see much reason to move away from doing something that I absolutely love in order to go back and starting making videos again. I had some level of fun making videos for sure, but it just doesn't compare to the enjoyment that I'm having now.
And that's the pathway in life I'm in right now. I'm chasing the dream of making games, and I won't be stopping any time soon!
Best Regards,
Laek
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